This place feels like a dream.
As if slowly getting lulled into a dreamstate.
There’s a sense of space here. Very wide and vaporous.
I’m slower and sleep like a stone. Time flies swiftly.
I now understand the people I’ve met telling me they didn’t experience time passing.
Akin to a long peaceful rest, one wakes up months later without much recollection of the duration.
I’ve had the strangest of dreams out here.
No wonder this is mushroom medicine country, I almost feel their spirit beckoning me within and slowly roasting me into a receptive state. Although my days of soul searching through psychedelics are long gone, I understand why people do it here.
It feels like I have one leg in the world and one leg in dreamtime, simply by being here.
There’s also a redneck attitude that I appreciate. They burn stuff, raise animals and build houses. An honest and simple life. Everybody greets each other without being overly friendly and possesses a good sense of personal space. Reminds me of the backcountry I grew up in.
I like it here.
As the music of Alpha Mist cradles me into chills in a local art café, I ponder upon my choices. Examining my relationship towards intimacy. It’s been on my mind a lot lately and I want to change my experience of it.
You see, I’m a pretty open and welcoming guy but for some reason, when it comes time for intimacy, I tend to hesitate. I lose touch with my desires and find myself at a loss as to what I really want and what to do about it.
Maybe an old semi-conscious response coming out of too many heartbreaks or some sort of fear of rejection takes over. Doesn’t make much sense to wall myself out of the human experience of intimacy now does it?
And so I consider my life from the point of view of empowerment and humor.
I take responsibility for my actions. Ready to adjust and realign.
I approach it with the lightness of being.
I believe our human experience to be a perfectly imperfect dance.
There’s always room for improvement as the backdrop of perfection never leaves.
Both dancing hand in hand towards a profound acceptance of the nature of change
It’s all play.
Nothing to be too serious about.
And so, as I finish my second espresso, I am wired as a power plant and ready to move.
Time for me to find myself a bike and go for a ride. Let’s get intimate with this town.
Hasta la proxima, amigos!
